What's in your heart?

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit." ~Proverbs 18:21~

"....For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks" Matthew 12:34

"I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you." ~Psalm 119:11~


Well, it's official...I found out a little bit about what's been hiding in my heart.
You think you know what's in your heart...I mean after all, it is your heart, right? Wrong. Our lives and bodies are not our own anymore, and besides that God is the only one who knows the intentions of the heart. Sometimes I fret about that....not knowing what's in there, ahhhh but fear not!!! Whatever is in there will eventually come spillin out!!!
I say this with sarcasm this morning, because I can look back upon last night and somehow ( I know how, it's all because if You)not beat myself up about it, but rather learn, and move on from it! Thank you Jesus!

So, what does it mean that out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks, anyways? Well, for me it means that whatever I've been feeding my heart... it's gonna give right back to me by way of my mouth. And it did!!! Neither my heart or mouth have been laying down on the job!! Infact they went above and beyond the call of duty last night. That is for darn sure!!

I have been naive in the past, and irresponsible. I have blamed others for what I have done. Infact the past can also be called last night. Nevertheless it is the past. And today is a new day, there is no blaming others for me today, today I take responsibility for my actions and examine my ways closely. Well, I don't even have to examine closely. After the fallout around here last night it is plainly sitting in front of me.!!; -)

And allthough I have been feeding my heart good things, reading the word and what not, trying to fill it with His precious promises, life and truth, I can see plainly now that I have also been feeding it contempt, vicious anger, resentment, hate, disrespect, dishonor, superiority and many other things which are not worth naming at this time.

Soooo...how do I fix this problem? Well, first repent!! Then get back on the wagon of love. Yes, yes, it's true there is a wagon of love...haha!! No, seriously though. I know where the problem lies, it's in taking my thoughts captive to the obedience of the word. I have been trying to pick up the slack on this, but there has been a long time of letting my thoughts roam free and it has taken its tole on my heart.
From now on, I will take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. So, when( i think) my husband makes me mad, or has the wrong attitude, or doesn't do things quite right or whatever the case may be, instead of thinking in my head (like I always do) that I am superior, I would do this better, he's immature why can't he be this or that or do it this way or that way or whatever, instead of thinking those things, I am going to cast them down! Because the bottom line in all of this, is I have control! God gave it to me! And when I think any thought whatsoever it better line up with the word of God, because if it can't be found in there, it doesn't belong in here. I am a child of the King!!! My body is a living sacrifice and every inch of me is supposed to be an instrument of love! He is Love, He is in me, I have been crucified, it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me!!!! Every inch of me, is Him if I allow it to be. I can take back control (as i did last night) at any point in time if I choose to, or I can let Him shine through me.
I am thankful for His words, His wisdom, and His Holy Spirit. And allthough, I spewed venoum last night, I see now that it had to happen. It was a purging of sorts. He let me do my thing and has shown me the error of my ways. I am not haunted by last night, I am empowered by today. The entrance of His words brings light to me!!

Father, Holy are You, righteous and true! There is no other God, there is no other Rock! You are the holy One. You are Faithful, Your kindness to me is everlasting. I am so overwhelmed by Your love and grace, I can literally feel You here with me, speaking to me...who am I? I see now that I am Yours, I see my name carved into the palms of Your hands, I see my name and my steps on Your lips. You care so much for me...and I cannot even understand how much. All of Your thoughts towards me are holy, and Your love is everlasting. Thank You for the mercy seat!! Thank You for pouring Your mercy out on me. I see now the error of my ways, and am truly so thankful for Your wisdom, and light!!! I am so thankful to see Your progress in me, I am thankful that You have taught me to not beat myself up anymore, and cling to Your grace!! You have taught me that what is behind is behind whether it be last year, last night, or two minutes ago. You made time and it matters not in the past. The past is the past. I am forgiven, because Jesus was forsaken.
Father, I need You! You know this. Holy Spirit, please show me my thoughts at every moment!! Don't let me let my mind run free!! I want it to be subject to me! I want a sound mind and I know You have granted it to me. Thank You for a sound mind, thank You for Your words hidden in my heart. Thank You that soon all that will be pouring out of my heart is Your word!! Thank You that You love me. Thank You that as I request it, so shall it be because the answers are Yes and Amen. Guide me, teach me, and help me to be slow to speak, not provoked to wrath, not angry, not malicious, but always reaching out and speaking forth Your love! I need Your healing love to pour forth from my mouth today, and everyday here after. I love You Father, You are glorious, and I am overwhelmed by Your faithfulness and love!
In Jesus name I pray, Amen

Sooo...what will I do? I will take every thought captive to the obedience of God's word. If it's not in there I'm not gonna dwell on it!! I will speak forth positive things. I will thank God for my strong husband, who is kind and gentle, and loving. I will thank Him for the work He is doing in my husband's life, preparing Him for the path He has for him. I will thank Him for the love and peace that is brewing in my husband's heart!!! I will begin to confess with my mouth the wonderful things about my husband whether they are visible to me at the time or not!!!!!!!!!
I will continue to read Your word and speak it in and out of season!! I will be blessed as my house is filled with God's light!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

" The entrance of Your words gives light;
It gives understanding to the simple." ~Psalm 119:130~

"“The Spirit of the LORD spoke by me,And His word was on my tongue." ~2 Samuel 23;2~

"His mouth is full of cursing and deceit and oppression;Under his tongue is trouble and iniquity. ~Psalm 10:7~
"Keep your tongue from evil,And your lips from speaking deceit." ~ Psalm 34:13~

"My soul is among lions;I lie among the sons of men Who are set on fire, Whose teeth are spears and arrows, And their tongue a sharp sword." ~ Psalm 57:4~

"Who sharpen their tongue like a sword,And bend their bows to shoot their arrows—bitter words" ~Psalm 64:3~

"The tongue of the righteous is choice silver; The heart of the wicked is worth little." ~ Proverbs 10:20~

"There is one who speaks like the piercings of a sword, But the tongue of the wise promotes health." ~ Proverbs 12:18~

"A wholesome tongue is a tree of life, But perverseness in it breaks the spirit."~ Proverbs 15:4~

"Even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things.See how great a forest a little fire kindles! And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell....But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison." ~James 3:5-8~


"I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you." ~Psalm 119:11~