Let the Lord be magnified

He will cover you with his feathers.
He will shelter you with his wings.
His faithful promises are your armor and protection.
Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night,
nor the arrow that flies in the day.
Do not dread the disease that stalks in darkness,
nor the disaster that strikes at midday.
Though a thousand fall at your side,
though ten thousand are dying around you,
these evils will not touch you.
PSALM 91:4-7

Girl America

This song means so much to me...it breaks my heart every time I hear it, reminding me of how much it means to be a girl. What a gift it is from God, and what a hard road it has been, and how I am just finally now embracing my girl hood.

My girl America is just a youth in this world
Her smile is more precious than the sparkle of pearls
And though her age reads she's just a young girl
The age behind her eyes show the pain that she's swirled
Through the hand that's been dealt though it's quiet as kept
The weight that she felt last night when she slept
And as she crept into the dreams of the things of her past
Seems to have grown so fast, way beyond her own class
Though they're right there with her, her brothers and her sisters
A natural born leader even when her peers dis her
My girl, she's at a crossroads, people praying for her
Some are preying on her magazine ads, sex, drama
Smoking marijuana, longer for a father to call her, 'daughter'
She's part of a generation longing for reconciliation
And this future that they're facing and this poison that they're tasting
My girl, I know this love you're chasing

[chorus]
My girl America's crying when she's lying on her bed at night
I can see that she's screaming when she's dreaming for her freedom
My girl America's dying while she's trying just to stop this fight
Don't stop believing, my girl America

Boys with hungry eyes have been beating her door
Telling her that's what she's for, trying to rob at her core
Then leave calling her a whore, but still she knows there's more
I know she knows there's more because there is a voice she can't ignore
'Cause it was founded in the foundations, from the day of her creation
In God we trust engraved on the treasures of her nation
And the void that the boys can't fill
With the tipping of the bottle or the popping of the pill
But still most of her friends don't care as they glare
Ready to drown down the funnel as they frown down the tunnel
They stumble and they tumble breaking down into rubble
My girl America, stop can't you see
It's not the circumstances that determine who you're gonna be
But how you deal with these problems and pains that come your way
It's for you that I pray with hope for a brighter day
And so I say, your deliverance is coming

[chorus]

Faith like a child from your first birth
You left it in the dirt on your worst hurt
And I see each tear and every scar
The hands that have held you where you are
And I can see we've strayed so far
A king born under that morning star
As a crown of thorns was placed to erase
Each tear that's touched your face
And his palms and sides were pierced with spears
He hung in love just to draw you near
My girl, out of this whole world
Can't you see this is where we started?

[chorus]

Fear...it's a funny thing.

Fear is only in our minds... by ❀Amy.Es̫mE❀̫ on Polyvore.com

I like this picture. I think about shooting down fear with that arrow instead of the gun that sits in front of me.
Fear...it's a funny thing. I hated the caption on this picture, "Fear is only in our minds.." I thought what BS. I feel it inside me everywhere. In Leviticus where it says ..."I will make their hearts so fearful in the lands of their enemies that the sound of a windblown leaf will put them to flight. They will run as though fleeing from the sword, and they will fall, even though no one is pursuing them." -26:36-....I feel like that's me.

The smallest sound now sends me jumping, and I pray when I go to bed to not wake up until it is daylight. I'd like to lie and say I'm fine, that I'm not afraid. After all, isn't that what the word tells me to do?? Be not afraid? I'm not sure what happened. The day of the burglary I was fine...but now...it is like I become paralized by fear.

To put a little more icing on the cake it's not as if Your words are not full of be not afraid comments or rather, commands, yet here I sit, trying to be as quiet as I can so I can make sure I hear if someone breaks in again. Ummmm....hello I have a security system, heavy duty steel doors, two pit bulls, a 9mm and a frigin shot gun and I am still afraid!!!!!!!!! Which leads me to my next point.

I know my fear is completely irrational! I have security measures out the wazoo, I have a God who saves, not who saves, but who has saved me...personally on numerous accounts starting back with the burglary. So, if God saved me once, if I am His child, His chosen one, His most precious jewel crowning His head...then won't He save me again? Yes, yes He will. And I know it. And I also know that there is a time for everything. There is a time to live and a time to die. And I know that when it is my time to die...I know, that I know, that I know...where I am going!!! After all, "In God I trust...What can man do to me?" -Ps. 56-

Still, I am afraid. I can try and try and try all I want...(did you notice all the I's??) But I suppose when the fear does leave (I actually feel it slightly subsiding now) it will be due to my lack of control on the issue. Or at least my lack of trying to control the issue and just letting the Holy Spirit do it's work in me. After all...He is the Helper (John 14:15) And I as a christian have Him here right stinkin now. He IS in me!!

Ugh! Well, what can I do? I can pray, I can read God's word and remind myself of how many times He tells me to be not afraid, and why He tells me that. And I can take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ..the Word.

Because whether you or I like it or not, the caption on that picture is right. It's all in your head. Or, rather my head. The mind is the battlefield, the mind is a very powerful thing. It can be tricked. I can be tricked by thoughts that will ultimately trigger my body to tremble just like that scripture says. So, that is what I will do. I will renew my mind by the power of God's living word, and let the Helper help me... (no matter how slow it may seem) into that sound mind that Timothy says I have.

Yeah, that's what I'll do, and I'll obviously blog about it so you all can pray for me!! Cause....you're my Helpers too, right. Uh, in case you didn't know that's my way of asking you to pray for me, so step to it. (I NEED YOU)

THE EFFECTUAL, FERVENT PRAYERS OF THE RIGHTEOUS MAN, AVAILETH MUCH! -James 5:16-

TINABAER