What's in your heart?

"Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit." ~Proverbs 18:21~

"....For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks" Matthew 12:34

"I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you." ~Psalm 119:11~


Well, it's official...I found out a little bit about what's been hiding in my heart.
You think you know what's in your heart...I mean after all, it is your heart, right? Wrong. Our lives and bodies are not our own anymore, and besides that God is the only one who knows the intentions of the heart. Sometimes I fret about that....not knowing what's in there, ahhhh but fear not!!! Whatever is in there will eventually come spillin out!!!
I say this with sarcasm this morning, because I can look back upon last night and somehow ( I know how, it's all because if You)not beat myself up about it, but rather learn, and move on from it! Thank you Jesus!

So, what does it mean that out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks, anyways? Well, for me it means that whatever I've been feeding my heart... it's gonna give right back to me by way of my mouth. And it did!!! Neither my heart or mouth have been laying down on the job!! Infact they went above and beyond the call of duty last night. That is for darn sure!!

I have been naive in the past, and irresponsible. I have blamed others for what I have done. Infact the past can also be called last night. Nevertheless it is the past. And today is a new day, there is no blaming others for me today, today I take responsibility for my actions and examine my ways closely. Well, I don't even have to examine closely. After the fallout around here last night it is plainly sitting in front of me.!!; -)

And allthough I have been feeding my heart good things, reading the word and what not, trying to fill it with His precious promises, life and truth, I can see plainly now that I have also been feeding it contempt, vicious anger, resentment, hate, disrespect, dishonor, superiority and many other things which are not worth naming at this time.

Soooo...how do I fix this problem? Well, first repent!! Then get back on the wagon of love. Yes, yes, it's true there is a wagon of love...haha!! No, seriously though. I know where the problem lies, it's in taking my thoughts captive to the obedience of the word. I have been trying to pick up the slack on this, but there has been a long time of letting my thoughts roam free and it has taken its tole on my heart.
From now on, I will take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. So, when( i think) my husband makes me mad, or has the wrong attitude, or doesn't do things quite right or whatever the case may be, instead of thinking in my head (like I always do) that I am superior, I would do this better, he's immature why can't he be this or that or do it this way or that way or whatever, instead of thinking those things, I am going to cast them down! Because the bottom line in all of this, is I have control! God gave it to me! And when I think any thought whatsoever it better line up with the word of God, because if it can't be found in there, it doesn't belong in here. I am a child of the King!!! My body is a living sacrifice and every inch of me is supposed to be an instrument of love! He is Love, He is in me, I have been crucified, it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me!!!! Every inch of me, is Him if I allow it to be. I can take back control (as i did last night) at any point in time if I choose to, or I can let Him shine through me.
I am thankful for His words, His wisdom, and His Holy Spirit. And allthough, I spewed venoum last night, I see now that it had to happen. It was a purging of sorts. He let me do my thing and has shown me the error of my ways. I am not haunted by last night, I am empowered by today. The entrance of His words brings light to me!!

Father, Holy are You, righteous and true! There is no other God, there is no other Rock! You are the holy One. You are Faithful, Your kindness to me is everlasting. I am so overwhelmed by Your love and grace, I can literally feel You here with me, speaking to me...who am I? I see now that I am Yours, I see my name carved into the palms of Your hands, I see my name and my steps on Your lips. You care so much for me...and I cannot even understand how much. All of Your thoughts towards me are holy, and Your love is everlasting. Thank You for the mercy seat!! Thank You for pouring Your mercy out on me. I see now the error of my ways, and am truly so thankful for Your wisdom, and light!!! I am so thankful to see Your progress in me, I am thankful that You have taught me to not beat myself up anymore, and cling to Your grace!! You have taught me that what is behind is behind whether it be last year, last night, or two minutes ago. You made time and it matters not in the past. The past is the past. I am forgiven, because Jesus was forsaken.
Father, I need You! You know this. Holy Spirit, please show me my thoughts at every moment!! Don't let me let my mind run free!! I want it to be subject to me! I want a sound mind and I know You have granted it to me. Thank You for a sound mind, thank You for Your words hidden in my heart. Thank You that soon all that will be pouring out of my heart is Your word!! Thank You that You love me. Thank You that as I request it, so shall it be because the answers are Yes and Amen. Guide me, teach me, and help me to be slow to speak, not provoked to wrath, not angry, not malicious, but always reaching out and speaking forth Your love! I need Your healing love to pour forth from my mouth today, and everyday here after. I love You Father, You are glorious, and I am overwhelmed by Your faithfulness and love!
In Jesus name I pray, Amen

Sooo...what will I do? I will take every thought captive to the obedience of God's word. If it's not in there I'm not gonna dwell on it!! I will speak forth positive things. I will thank God for my strong husband, who is kind and gentle, and loving. I will thank Him for the work He is doing in my husband's life, preparing Him for the path He has for him. I will thank Him for the love and peace that is brewing in my husband's heart!!! I will begin to confess with my mouth the wonderful things about my husband whether they are visible to me at the time or not!!!!!!!!!
I will continue to read Your word and speak it in and out of season!! I will be blessed as my house is filled with God's light!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

" The entrance of Your words gives light;
It gives understanding to the simple." ~Psalm 119:130~

"“The Spirit of the LORD spoke by me,And His word was on my tongue." ~2 Samuel 23;2~

"His mouth is full of cursing and deceit and oppression;Under his tongue is trouble and iniquity. ~Psalm 10:7~
"Keep your tongue from evil,And your lips from speaking deceit." ~ Psalm 34:13~

"My soul is among lions;I lie among the sons of men Who are set on fire, Whose teeth are spears and arrows, And their tongue a sharp sword." ~ Psalm 57:4~

"Who sharpen their tongue like a sword,And bend their bows to shoot their arrows—bitter words" ~Psalm 64:3~

"The tongue of the righteous is choice silver; The heart of the wicked is worth little." ~ Proverbs 10:20~

"There is one who speaks like the piercings of a sword, But the tongue of the wise promotes health." ~ Proverbs 12:18~

"A wholesome tongue is a tree of life, But perverseness in it breaks the spirit."~ Proverbs 15:4~

"Even so the tongue is a little member and boasts great things.See how great a forest a little fire kindles! And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell....But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison." ~James 3:5-8~


"I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you." ~Psalm 119:11~

More on Faithfulness

Allthough faithfulness to the dictionary is justly representing the Original, and I feel like I fail in that comparison.
I know Your definition is the only one that matters.
Faithfulness to You is me dusting off my knees again, counting on Your mercy this morning, and boldly coming to the throne of grace again.
Faithfulness to You is not leaning on my own understanding but acknowledging You in all my ways.
Faithfulness to You is trusting You today.
Faithfulness to You is me knowing I can't make it on my own and clinging to Your grace all the more.
Faithfulness to You can be summed up in me loving You.

And oh how I love You.

Your faithfulness surrounds me.

If we are faithless [do not believe and are untrue to Him], He remains true (faithful to His Word and His righteous character), for He cannot deny Himself. ~II Timothy 2:13~

It always amazes me, how You can hide so much in so little. How much do we miss Father by breezing by Your words like just another no parking sign?

Thank You Father God, that You remain faithful. Thank You that You cannot change, You cannot deny Yourself like we so often manage to do. Thank You! I love You! You are Holy, Righteous and True. There is no other God, no other Rock.

For the upright will dwell in the land, and the blameless will remain in it; but the wicked will be cut off from the earth, and the unfaithful will be uprooted from it. ~Proverbs 2:21,22~

Upright: Pointing upward, morally erect, honorable and honest.

Dwell: Reside

Blameless: Free of blame; or guilt. Innocent

Remain: To be a part not destroyed, taken or used up.

Wicked: Evil by nature and in practice. Severe and distressing. Highly offensive.

Cut: Sever
Off: So as to be completely removed, finished or eliminated.

Unfaithful: (Okay this was pretty significant to me, so I had to put it in yellow. :) NOT ADHERING TO PROMISES. (Whoa. Did you hear that? Or is it only significant to me?), obligations or ALLEGIANCES(<-- another whoa for me!!), disloyal. (--->another whoa!)NOT JUSTLY REPRESENTING OR REFLECTING THE ORIGINAL, inaccurate.

Uproot: To pull up, to displace, to remove or to utterly destroy.

Okay, so....is it just me that this hits like a thousand pound punch to the gut? NOT ADHERING TO PROMISES?? Ummmm...you mean like the promise that is every word breathed from God's mouth? Like when I feel alone, or let myself dwell in loneliness? Because after all, didn't He promise He would never leave me, no never? You mean that promise?
Or how about the promise of peace? Not just peace, but peace like a river. Peace that surpasses all understanding? Am I laying hold of that which He has promised me? A life of peace?
Or how about the promise of protection? Am I living in fear of what might happen to me? I mean didn't He promise that no evil would befall my family, no weapon formed against them would prosper? You mean that promise?
Or what about being close to You God? When I go about my day as if You are not there? When I think and live as if You are far away. Like why would You want to be near me, when I fail so much? After all, didn't You promise that if I drew near to You, You would draw near to me?
Soooo many things You have said. So many things promised. Do I adhere to Your word? I mean sure, I try to be honest, and try to be loving and forgiving. But what about Your other promises? Do I believe You when You say You won't leave me? Do I believe You when You say You will protect me? When my mom and my dad fail me, You will never fail me? When I don't know what to say, You will speak through me? What about that You forgive ALL my sins and heal ALL my diseases? What about a life of abundance? Do I believe that? What about that You do not speak in secret? That You are here? That You hear me, that You love me, that Your grace is sufficient for me, that Your angels guard me, that there is no fear in love, that perfect love casts out all fear? Am I afraid I'll lose You? That You'll forget about me? The very creation of Your hands? Am I afraid You will dump me off thinking I am too much work? Am I afraid You won't protect me? That maybe You do want me to die at the hands of robbers and thieves? What does Your word say?? No evil, no evil, no evil will befall my family, no weapon formed against us will prosper, Your angels will guard my life, I have the choice to choose life or death, choose life. Do I believe that You know the plans You have form me, that they are plans for good and not evil, to give me a future and a hope? Do I believe Your promise that Your word won't return to You void? That it will accomplish all that You have sent it to do? Do I believe? If I do not believe how can I adhere? How can I adhere to Your promises if I do not believe? How can I believe without seeing it first? By faith? Oh, well, how can I have faith ...oh You say that faith comes by hearing, and hearing the word of God?

Wow! I had a point to make and now I think it got lost in translation. :) But maybe after seeing these definitions this verse will hit you just a little bit different as you are breezing by it next time.

One more time I will put down the definitions to unfaithful for you.
NOT ADHERING TO PROMISES, obligations or allegiances. Disloyal, NOT JUSTLY REPRESENTING OR REFLECTING THE ORIGINAL, inaccurate.

So, who do you represent? Who are you reflecting? How close is it to the Original? Are you adhering to His promises? Do you really believe Him?

Like the man asking Jesus to heal his son (matthew 17:14+) I often have to cry out "..Lord, I believe.; help my unbelief!"

Thank You Father for Your precious Son. Thank You Jesus, for Your sacrifice, Your spilled blood that covers me and grants me victory through Your promises.

Blind Bartimaeus

~And when he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to cry out and say, Jesus, thou son of David have mercy on me. And many charged him that he should hold his peace; but he cried the more a great deal, THOU SON OF DAVID HAVE MERCY ON ME~ (Mark 10:47,48)

This is great. A great example of faith. A man who would not be quiet and who would not give up.

When we cry out to Jesus, trouble will come, when we stand on His promises, trouble will come, busyness will come, faint heartedness will come, exhaustion may come. We may be battered on every side. People may be all around us laying small seeds of doubt, "Just be quiet. " " Are you sure that's what His word means", (two of my faves--->) "Are you sure that is God you are hearing from?", "Yeah, but look at how you live! You just cursed someone out today. You really think God's gonna help you?"

DON'T GIVE UP!!! Don't fall off course, don't stop standing on the promises, and whatever you do, don't stop crying out to the Lord!
If anything, be like Blind Bartimaeus and cry out all the louder!! Drown out the cares of this world and the voices of doubt! Stand firm having girded your waist with truth (God's word) and cry out until you see His face!
Do not- I repeat do not be moved! After all you are saved by grace, not by how "good" a christian you were today! It is not by anything we can do, or anything we can be. We are made righteous by the precious, spotless, spilled blood of the Lamb.

~And Jesus stood still and commanded him to be called. And they called the blind man saying unto him, Be of good comfort, rise He calleth thee....and Jesus answered and said unto him, what wilt thou that I should do unto thee? The blind mansaid unto Him, Lord, that I might receive my sight. And Jesus said unto him, Go thy way; thy faith hath made thee whole. And immediately he received his sight and followed Jesus in the way. ~(Mark 10:51,52)


~For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves, it is the gift of God: not of works lest any man should boast~ (Eph. 2:8,9)

This is now

In an acceptable time I have heard You, and in the day of salvation I have helped You; I will preserve You and give You as a covenant to the people, to restore the earth, to cause them to inherit the desolate heritages; that You may say to the prisoners, 'Go forth, to those who are in darkness, 'Show yourselves.' They shall feed along the roads, and their pastures shall be on all desolate heights. They shall neither hunger nor thirst, neither heat nor sun shall strike them; for He who has mercy on them will lead them, even by springs of water He will guide them. I will make each of My mountains a road, and My highways shall be elevated. ...Isaiah 49:8-11

This time is now....we His people are to inherit the desolate heritages now...now we are to go forth, step out show ourselves, now. Now we are to neither hunger nor thirst. We are led by springs of living water now. NOW, NOW, NOW!!! NOW is the time!!!

What are we waiting for?? Why are people not arising and claiming the good life God has for us?? I am no different. I am one of these. Waiting, confused, not sure. Oh, how terrible those things are.
The enemy is the confuser, not God!

He has plainly stated in His words, He has forgiven all our sins, and has healed us of all our disease. (Psalm 103:2,3)

He called His twelve disciples to Him and gave them authority to drive out evil spirits and to heal EVERY disease and sickness. (Matthew 10:1)

He has said that ..those who seek the Lord lack NO GOOD THING. (Psalm 34:10)

What is the matter with us? This same power is in us. We lack no good thing!! We have the authority to drive out demons, and heal EVERY disease and sickness!!!! Why, why do we walk in lack?? Why are we so afraid to step out in faith and heal??
This is what it comes down to ultimately. Do we believe God or not? I mean in the beginning was the word, and the word was with God and the word was God, right?? So, if the word is God, and the word says it then God says it. And it's not something we have take with a grain of salt, It is, IT IS...IT IS....IT IS. It just is. There isn't any casting of shadows with Him, He doesn't change, He doesn't deceive or twist or contort, He speaks plainly, DO WE BELIEVE?????????

Because God wanted to make the unchanging nature of his purpose very clear to the heirs of what was promised, he confirmed it with an oath. God did this so that, by two unchangeable things in which it is impossible for God to lie, we who have fled to take hold of the hope offered to us may be greatly encouraged. We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. It enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where Jesus, who went before us, has entered on our behalf. He has become a high priest forever, in the order of Melchizedek. (Hebrews 6:17-20)

So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. (Isaiah 55:11)

Know your enemy 101

Well, as I sat in my fear tonight over the creeking mailbox, and barking dogs, and after of course I looked out the window or the peephole around ten times and after I got the kids to sleep, I decided maybe it was time to go ahead and see what the word said about fear.
And as I sat down I thought, how much do I really know about my enemy? I mean what do I really know? Yes, yes, we all know he is a liar and there is no truth in him. We all know he is defeated... a murderer. And even though I know all those things I thought I better go ahead and look them up again..... look something up at least about who he is. That I should know my enemy, if I am to be victorious over him.
So, this is where the Holy Spirit took me.

-II Corinthians 2:11- ..in order that satan might not outwit us. For we are not unaware of his schemes.

Outwit: To surpass in cleverness or cunning; outsmart.
To surpass intelligence.

(This is where it gets good. )

-Hosea 4:6- My people perish from lack of knowledge.

Knowledge: The state or fact of knowing.

And Mindi's (a teacher of mine) words are playing through my head.
Read the word, speak the word, until you know that you know that you know that you know.

Lord, sweet, sweet Father, Master and Savior, help me I need You!! I need Your strength to come be made perfect in my weakness right now. I know I can only be one or the other. I cannot trust You and fear at the same time. I cannot say I believe You and fear at the same time. I cannot really understand Your love while I fear, because Your perfect love casts out all fear.
I don't know much Lord, I will admit that. I am flawed and unfaithful to You most of the time, but here I am Lord. I seek Your face. You are where I turn.. here, now in my time of need. I look to You Father, because I know my only safe place, is You. Oh Father, heavenly gracious, righteous and true, I need You!! Will You come, and hold me tight, tell me great and unsearchable things that I do not know, for my deep calls out for Yours!! You are great, always abounding in mercy, and I fall before Your feet, desperate and weary. I love You. I seek You, for I know You will lift my head. I love You, I love You, I love You. In Jesus' precious and holy blood stained Name, Amen.

More on fear.

" What is man that You are mindful of him, or the son of man that You take care of him? You have made him a little lower than the angels; You have crowned him with glory and honor, and set him over the works of Your hands. You have put all things in subjection under his feet. "

For in that He put all in subjection under him, He left NOTHING THAT IS NOT PUT UNDER HIM. But now we do not yet see all things put under him.......Inasmuch then as the children have partaken of flesh and blood, He Himself likewise shared in the same, that through death He might destroy him who had the power of death, that is the devil, and release those WHO THROUGH FEAR OF DEATH WERE ALL THEIR LIFETIME SUBJECT TO BONDAGE. For indeed He does not give aid to angels but He does give aid to the seed of Abraham. - Hebrews 26+-


I really like how the amplified bible tells verse 14 and 15.... that by (going through) death He might bring to NOUGHT AND MAKE OF NO EFFECT him who had the power of death- that is, the devil. And also that He might DELIVER AND COMPLETELY SET FREE all those who through the (haunting) fear of death were held in bondage throughout the whole course of their lives.