Fear...it's a funny thing.

Fear is only in our minds... by ❀Amy.Es̫mE❀̫ on Polyvore.com

I like this picture. I think about shooting down fear with that arrow instead of the gun that sits in front of me.
Fear...it's a funny thing. I hated the caption on this picture, "Fear is only in our minds.." I thought what BS. I feel it inside me everywhere. In Leviticus where it says ..."I will make their hearts so fearful in the lands of their enemies that the sound of a windblown leaf will put them to flight. They will run as though fleeing from the sword, and they will fall, even though no one is pursuing them." -26:36-....I feel like that's me.

The smallest sound now sends me jumping, and I pray when I go to bed to not wake up until it is daylight. I'd like to lie and say I'm fine, that I'm not afraid. After all, isn't that what the word tells me to do?? Be not afraid? I'm not sure what happened. The day of the burglary I was fine...but now...it is like I become paralized by fear.

To put a little more icing on the cake it's not as if Your words are not full of be not afraid comments or rather, commands, yet here I sit, trying to be as quiet as I can so I can make sure I hear if someone breaks in again. Ummmm....hello I have a security system, heavy duty steel doors, two pit bulls, a 9mm and a frigin shot gun and I am still afraid!!!!!!!!! Which leads me to my next point.

I know my fear is completely irrational! I have security measures out the wazoo, I have a God who saves, not who saves, but who has saved me...personally on numerous accounts starting back with the burglary. So, if God saved me once, if I am His child, His chosen one, His most precious jewel crowning His head...then won't He save me again? Yes, yes He will. And I know it. And I also know that there is a time for everything. There is a time to live and a time to die. And I know that when it is my time to die...I know, that I know, that I know...where I am going!!! After all, "In God I trust...What can man do to me?" -Ps. 56-

Still, I am afraid. I can try and try and try all I want...(did you notice all the I's??) But I suppose when the fear does leave (I actually feel it slightly subsiding now) it will be due to my lack of control on the issue. Or at least my lack of trying to control the issue and just letting the Holy Spirit do it's work in me. After all...He is the Helper (John 14:15) And I as a christian have Him here right stinkin now. He IS in me!!

Ugh! Well, what can I do? I can pray, I can read God's word and remind myself of how many times He tells me to be not afraid, and why He tells me that. And I can take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ..the Word.

Because whether you or I like it or not, the caption on that picture is right. It's all in your head. Or, rather my head. The mind is the battlefield, the mind is a very powerful thing. It can be tricked. I can be tricked by thoughts that will ultimately trigger my body to tremble just like that scripture says. So, that is what I will do. I will renew my mind by the power of God's living word, and let the Helper help me... (no matter how slow it may seem) into that sound mind that Timothy says I have.

Yeah, that's what I'll do, and I'll obviously blog about it so you all can pray for me!! Cause....you're my Helpers too, right. Uh, in case you didn't know that's my way of asking you to pray for me, so step to it. (I NEED YOU)

THE EFFECTUAL, FERVENT PRAYERS OF THE RIGHTEOUS MAN, AVAILETH MUCH! -James 5:16-

TINABAER