Oh how we want You to come!!!!

Oh, how I want You to come!!! I am desperate for You tonight God!!

As the "breaking news" of Michael Jackson's death came over the air waves, I felt sick to my stomach. Why are they making this breaking news, this is ridiculous!! The man lead a very questionable life, and how is he so much more special than anyone else who dies? Honestly!!

But now as I have had a chance to sit at my computer, and look at a slideshow of him, my heart aches for the terror that was this man's life. It's weird how certain things hit me...something as simple as a boy crying in the doctor's office, or something so bizarre as this man's life set my heart in the state where it remembers how empty this place is, how dark, how hard it is here, and how I long for Your return!!

Everyday or at least most days we go on living, laughing, loving, and forget how serious this place is, how real a battle that must go on, how real the terrors of hell are, and how many people are in need of redemption.

So tonight, I remember how much I hate this world. How much I hate the enemy, how much I long, and yearn for Your return.

What pain must have been Michael Jackson's life, what turmoil, what must he have been batteling? What was it that made him so unhappy with how You created him that he had to go and twist and contort it until he couldn't find himself anymore.

God of all things, merciful, merciful Lord....we desperately await Your return. Even creation groans in pain awaiting Your arrival. Forgive us Lord, forgive me...for not caring enough, being so wrapped up in myself, and my "religion" that I don't see people for who they really are, or what they are really going through. ...Change me LORD..please, please, change me!!! Don't let me fail in the battle, don't let me be so full of selfishness that I am oblivious to the truth, and the reality that is broken hearts surrounding me. May Your kingdom come Lord!!! Bring heaven here....bring Your heaven here on this earth!!!!! Bring Your peace, bring Your love, Your grace, Your presence. I LONG FOR YOU LORD!!!! MY HEART BREAKS FOR THE PEOPLE AROUND ME...I AWAIT YOUR RETURN!!! COME LORD, COME!!!!!